Truest lies I ever heard

1.Bro we bout to hit this lick and be on,

2.Baby I love and would never let you go

3.You my homie for ever and I love you past life

4.I’m in love with you woman, I think I want you for a wife

5.Just give me a year run and I promise we a be rich

6.I never trip with my family,especially over a bitch

7.I don’t care about nothing I’m ready to die

8.Look at my face fam,I would never lie

9.You can be anything in this world

10.There is no such thing as racism

11.If you pray everyday you will go to heaven

12.Words don’t hurt

13.The world is fair

14.The good die young


Those are some of the truest lies I ever heard are told in my life. We have all either listened to someone tell them to us,are we told them. I left fifteen open for you to fill in,try it.


My first addiction!!!

I’m a explain something to the world that only the people addicted to this behavior can understand, its called a suicidal fetish! Let me explain how I obtained this sickness at a early age. I remember riding my bike down a hill of a city block and the feel of wind on my face mixed with the rush of knowing a car might meet me on the other end of this hill, woke up a Daredevil in me early. Just think back to the days when we would dare each other to risk are life to be accepted. I think that’s the first drug I ever had, a drug called more heart than you.

You probably thinking this dude tripping, yeah I am. But check me out on this, us adrinaline fiends can only get a real rush off so many things that don’t jeopardize this thing called life. You might like bungee jumping, are mountain climbing. While I might like the action from the streets, it’s all the same addiction called a RUSH!


Two stepping

I was sitting back relaxing when my over active mind started to dance. At first it was doing the running man around my thoughts of prosperity. Then it slowed down and started doing a two step into defining moments of my life. So when it spined off the negative and dipped into the good days, I almost started dancing for real! I swear it was like being on extacy for a second.
But there was one thought that I have to share with you all. Now it hasn’t happened yet, but I have dreamed it so much that it feels way to real. But heres what it is, it’s the thought of making it, reaching the dreams and fantasies that cross my mind daily. Putting myself in a position to pull my folks up around me. Being able to wake up and not only pursue my dreams, but help others do the same. Cause if you ask me I don’t care how much money you have, your not successful if your not happy.



I want everyone to take this and really absorb what I’m bout to say,because this is probably the truest words I ever wrote. If you’ve known me for 10 years are better than you probably never seen me on the streets for more than a year solid. Are you probably never even thought I could read let alone put a pen to a pad and express myself. But I am at a point where I’m trying to make a difference for the positive but I feel more lost than I ever have in life. All this is new to me,all this be positive this try and stay sober and this believe in the unseen and have faith. To live in a manner that is deemed right is the motive most strive for. So I ask this which is easier being real are being correct,doing what feels right are what is right?
To do what feels right means to follow your heart and if I’m correct a lot of us have heart problems. And guess who one of us is,you guessed it me that’s who! But luckily I was able to cure my heart disease with a small diet change and exercise. I cut a lot of the bull out and started doing hurdles over haters! Changed my circle to a pyramid and life turned into something beautiful.


Me vs Myself

    Ok I woke up on this rainy morning and felt kinda down wishing and wanting things I probably shouldn’t worry about. But then I said fuck it if I want it I should get it. I was not placed on this Earth to not enjoy the fruits of my labor. I started to reminisce about the days when I didn’t second guess myself, the days when I made every episode one to remember. Damn, what happened to Nique. He got replaced with some dude named Dom. 

      I don’t really like Dom he is boring and too cautious. But all Nique did was get high and go to jail, at least Dom works and tries to help others. That’s true but look at his face he don’t smile like Nique, talk like Nique are even vibe like Nique! Well all that’s true but we need Dom to keep Nique in check, so what do we do to bring the two together? You know if we combine the two we well have the best of both worlds.

   So this is what I told myself after the debate I was having with Nique. If you two don’t get along with one another then Dominic is going to fail. Then guess what both of y’all loose. So Dom being the semi responsible one extends his hand to Nique and says let’s do it, Nique smiles that goofy grin and bear hugs him. I don’t know about you all but that was a major stepping stone. Cause my angel and my demon just agreed to work together to save Dominic!


My strongest addiction

Why is it that one of the most beautiful and essential things in life is also  one of the most painful and dangerous? Love,yes I used the four letters that change lives for better or worse. It is the only thing besides death none of us can avoid. It starts with are admiration for are parents and then we start experimenting with the feelings of infatuation and lust. But what happens when you get the opportunity and it blows up in your face. Do you place a deep freezer in your chest and say never again, well most of us try to. But guess what God likes when you do that. It gives him a challenge, have you noticed when you try to ban those four letters it seems our savior places someone in your life to erase the pain and restore the faith?

    I have been addicted to many things in my life,but the one addiction I can never counqer and don’t want to is love. It is a subscription to happiness and the feeling of being complete. It is the foundation you need to build a solid foundation on. Please don’t think I’m only speaking of love from the opposite sex, I’m speaking on love from the people around you. The ones that you love to share love with. Just look at some of the children living in horrific conditions and how they smile through it all. Because there love tank is still on full, and they share it amongst one another freely. So while you raise your children, take a note and learn to love whole hearted again from them. I say this all the time it’s the each one teach one theory!


The beauty of the struggle

Have you ever heard the expression it’s a beautiful struggle? Then sat back and asked yourself how in the hell can a struggle be beautiful. Easy, anytime you go through trails and tribulations it’s part of the beautiful process of life. Let me share with you this one thing that opened my eyes to the beauty of pain. When I was incarcerated I used to sat in my window and listen to the rain and wish I could feel it on my skin,are just be sitting in my car with the music down low just watching rain drops hit the windshield. See most people see the rain and it turns there mood gloomy. But when your no longer able to enjoy a task that seems so simple it is a daily struggle to find peace. Simple things like being able to take a shower without shower shoes are the sound of a car starting. 

        See the beauty we see in the the things we love can only be appreciated when life puts you on punishment. Remember the days your parents would ground you for a week,when that week was up everything we did last week seemed like the most important thing in life. So the struggle only intensifies the appreciation for all life’s joy. So when the rain stops and the sun shines, frowns turn upside down and those crooked smiles light up the world. So as long as a lesson is learned from every mistake,there can be a story told over dinner that brings laughter wisdom with appreciation for the struggle.


That feeling !

I’m a paint you this picture,so please block everyone out and as you read visualize! So there is this lil 16 year old kid I know who is always talking about how he loves life. I know,why is that such a bad thing,it’s not it’s the opposite. But one day I pulled up and he had this I’m a kill the world and fuck you don’t preach to me look on his face. So you know me I still approached lil homie like what’s wrong with you,why you mugging the clouds. His response,dude don’t play me right now I don’t care about nothing are nobody! On my life I hate living right now O.G.

Now I done had so many of those days I know how he feeling and the seriousness of his thoughts. I say damn lil homie,I know how you feeling trust me, but guess what that I don’t give a fuck attitude a get you. He say you the hell away from me with this knowledge shit right now. Damn really,look I know how it is to wake up trying to find purpose and finances in the same breath. How it feels when you having a bad day people act like your wrong for it. Shit I still wake up and feel like the world hate me for being what a been I was raised to be. But I want you to know this, 25 years ago I mastered the art of that attitude and was in the top 5 when it came to living it.

But it cost me about 20 of those years to the state plus 30 grand in child support. So if you don’t want to listen to me preach think about your pockets cause I know you don’t like being broke. He turned and said to me big homie how you always trying to save someone when you need more help than them? It startled me because it’s the truth,but I told him. Because it’s what helps me forget my pain and feel like I’m making a change for the better to help someone avoid my mistakes,it’s called each one teaching one.


What do you do?

Have you ever been talking to one of your people’s and they get a lil tipsy and spill something in a way that you know they hoped hurt you. Well what do you do in that moment be mad at the person who they exposed are them for showing the hatred the bottled up? How about you say fuck them both and keep smiling and just take a note. Because when someone exposes there hands like that there probably holding a lot more than they care to say. I was always told to never try and break one of your folks down because you are going through some things,but build them up because love and happiness have a way of spreading to everyone around you when it’s in the air. Not only that because it’s what genuine people do. Stooping to a individual who let that drunk mouth speak there sober heart is something like a coward, it mainly someone who is not them self. No matter the level of intoxication you should know better than to say something that can destroy anything you worked hard to obtain. But then again it could be a blessing in disguise, you just found the skeletons to the snakes you been searching for.